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Pride. Present. Pam: As I Am!

Pam Coffeng
Senior Staff, Audit
For Pam, Senior Staff in Audit & Assurance, the decision to embrace her true self has been a journey of reflection, courage, and growth. Her story reminds us why it’s so important to create a work environment where everyone feels safe to be themselves. 'Representation at work matters. More often, it is the small things—a friendly word, an invitation—that can make a big impact.'

Her Early Years: Facing Internal Struggles

Growing up, Pam didn’t fully explore who she was. While she went through her teenage milestones, she now realizes that some things didn’t quite add up. 'Looking back, I realize that my feelings were trying to tell me something in moments when my friends in high school made jokes about other girls—about their choice of clothing, attractiveness, or having a "girl crush." Avoiding this feeling continued into her university years. She dated men and lived what Pam calls a “normal student life.” But deep down, something was missing. I’d tell myself I just hadn’t found the right guy yet,' she explains.

Her Turning Point: Letting Go of Fear

Pam’s life began to change in the summer of 2022 when a casual night out turned into a moment of clarity. 'I was dancing with a woman at a party,' she says. 'And for the first time, something in my brain clicked, I allowed myself to experience this feeling. That feeling stayed with me for months. It was so clear, and I couldn’t ignore it anymore.' Things accelerated when Pam opened up to close friends. Their support gave her the courage to be more open. Later, during a family conversation about LGBTQ+ topics, she took an unexpected turn. 'I suddenly said, ‘I don’t even know if I’ll end up with a man.’ It shocked me more than it shocked my parents, and their response was completely supportive. I never doubted my parents’ support, but having said it out loud was a big step forward for me.'

Her First Pride: The Power of a Safe Workplace

Growing up, Pam didn’t fully explore who she was. While she went through her teenage milestones, she now realizes that some things didn’t quite add up. 'Looking back, I realize that my feelings were trying to tell me something in moments when my friends in high school made jokes about other girls—about their choice of clothing, attractiveness, or having a "girl crush." Avoiding this feeling continued into her university years. She dated men and lived what Pam calls a “normal student life.” But deep down, something was missing. I’d tell myself I just hadn’t found the right guy yet,' she explains.

Her Turning Point: Letting Go of Fear

Pam’s life began to change in the summer of 2022 when a casual night out turned into a moment of clarity. 'I was dancing with a woman at a party,' she says. 'And for the first time, something in my brain clicked, I allowed myself to experience this feeling. That feeling stayed with me for months. It was so clear, and I couldn’t ignore it anymore.' Things accelerated when Pam opened up to close friends. Their support gave her the courage to be more open. Later, during a family conversation about LGBTQ+ topics, she took an unexpected turn. 'I suddenly said, ‘I don’t even know if I’ll end up with a man.’ It shocked me more than it shocked my parents, and their response was completely supportive. I never doubted my parents’ support, but having said it out loud was a big step forward for me.'

Her Lessons Learned: An Advice for Others

Growing up, Pam didn’t fully explore who she was. While she went through her teenage milestones, she now realizes that some things didn’t quite add up. 'Looking back, I realize that my feelings were trying to tell me something in moments when my friends in high school made jokes about other girls—about their choice of clothing, attractiveness, or having a "girl crush." Avoiding this feeling continued into her university years. She dated men and lived what Pam calls a “normal student life.” But deep down, something was missing. I’d tell myself I just hadn’t found the right guy yet,' she explains.

Her Turning Point: Letting Go of Fear

Pam’s life began to change in the summer of 2022 when a casual night out turned into a moment of clarity. 'I was dancing with a woman at a party,' she says. 'And for the first time, something in my brain clicked, I allowed myself to experience this feeling. That feeling stayed with me for months. It was so clear, and I couldn’t ignore it anymore.' Things accelerated when Pam opened up to close friends. Their support gave her the courage to be more open. Later, during a family conversation about LGBTQ+ topics, she took an unexpected turn. 'I suddenly said, ‘I don’t even know if I’ll end up with a man.’ It shocked me more than it shocked my parents, and their response was completely supportive. I never doubted my parents’ support, but having said it out loud was a big step forward for me.'

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